After the shock I got yesterday I’m still struggling to find the right words.
I’m so sad about what happened and I still can’t believe he died this useless death. If they had made the right diagnosis from the start he would be still alive… but it’s too late now. :(
The news hit me harder than I thought. I didn’t know him for long.. only half a year.. but I fell in love with his smile instantly. Never happened before “that way”.. Later I watched documentary with him (and his boyfriend) and read lots of interviews …I wanted to learn more about this handsome man. I followed him on Twitter and Facebook and was saving his pictures and videos like crazy… I even registered on his unofficial fanclub “Kohaholics”.
You could say I was a fan.^^
What I liked about him was his smile and laughter… in all those outtakes and random videos when he laughed and giggled.. he was so cute. He had such beautiful and kind eyes.. he must have been a very lovely person in private. And I was also impressed by his passionate acting. If you have seen any of his works you will know what I mean. He was called a legend for a reason.
Some people do not understand why I feel this way and they might see him as one of those “porn actors”… but for me he was no different than any other of my favorite K or J-idols who I love and respect..He was an artist too.. a human first of all… and reading these news about his death gave me a huge shock.
I was surfing my Tumblr and had nothing bad in mind … Then suddenly I see a picture of him with “RIP” in a funny looking font. And as I was scrolling down and trying to put the letters together in my mind my heart started beating very fast.. I didn’t understand and thought somebody was kidding or that I missed a letter and it was not a “RIP”. It took me a while til I got the message… and it took a few more hours til I understood why and how he died. Many people commented stupid things like “he didn’t want to get surgery because of possible scars” and acted like they know shit..
That’s not true!
If you really want to know what happened take a few minutes and read this: http://www.queerclick.com/asians/archive/2013/05/rip_masaki_koh_passed_away_due.php
This comment sums it up:
“It started on the 25th and at the time was diagnosed for gastroenteritis. The real cause wasn’t found ‘til May 2nd when his health got worse. It turned out to be peritonitis brought on by the rupture of the cecum. He had emergency surgery on the same day, but complications arose on the 7th and went in for another surgery and it ends there.
He did complain about not wanting scars, but he didn’t delay the surgery because of it. Doctors scolded him by saying they take priority in life first.”
I shed many tears and had a hard time falling asleep last night…
It will take some time til I realize he’s gone forever.
I wish his family, friends and boyfriend much strength.
May he rest in peace.
I’ll miss you Masaki Koh. ♥
From today a star ascended into heaven, has shut down his light on earth, to shine beautiful and full of life in the sky, for the sky is brighter and more beautiful than ever.
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